Saturday, June 12, 2010

Almost 6 months


I have to say, this belly thing was a little weird at first! I couldn't wait for it to pop out, but then the attention kind of got to me. I thought I would love it, but I surprised myself by feeling pretty self-conscious about it for awhile. I think it it's the weirdness of having people's eyes drop to your belly, and you can tell they are wondering if you are pregnant or not. It took me a few weeks, but now I love it and it's fun to have it noticeable that there's someone else in there. An old family acquaintance looked at me last week and said, "You're pregnant, aren't you?" and I felt so excited that it was finally obvious enough to someone who didn't know to say something. I've also noticed I have a tendency to arch my back and put my hand on my belly to make it even more noticeable.

I was thinking today about how neat it is that it already feels like we're a family of three and has for quite awhile. With so many of my friends, by the time their babies were born it felt like even though the baby was a brand new person, he or she had been a part of my friends and their lives for so long. My friend Tricia just posted that baby N just turned 3 months...it feels like N has always been a part of them! Little Eliana is also just 3 months...I can't imagine her parents without her or her brother Isaac. I love watching my friends build their own families, especially seeing parts of both mom and dad in each baby; like J and E in baby L!

I can wait to SEE this little person, to hold her and smell her and rock her and introduce her to everyone. I've surprised myself in another way in that I've had this sort of quiet "inwardness" about the baby. I can't really explain or describe it, other than to say that I love this "just the two of us" time. That's changing too though, especially now that others can feel her move so easily now. Now, whenever she moves, I pretty much want to grab the hand of anyone near so they can feel her too. I'm dying to know whose features she has and whose personality traits, and see what is completely her own.

We also picked up a little used baby doppler at the Tot Swap back in March. I read online that the things are pretty useless, but we used it the other night and found her heartbeat! I tried to find it again today for my niece, but it was impossible to keep that kind of focus with a toddler. We ended up just listening to our own heartbeats and hearing the baby swoosh around. That was enough though to get one little cousin very excited.

2 comments:

  1. Awww ... thanks for sharing that, Taylor. :) We can still remember what it was like pre-N but it's so much better with her here. I fondly remember those moments when I would be sitting by myself at home, in the quiet, just feeling her move in my belly and tearing up over the time we spent "just the two of us." There's such a bond already, isn't there? We can't wait to meet baby girl Smith!

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  2. Aw Taylor, thanks for sharing your heart! It's so interesting to hear the mind and thoughts of a pregnant woman. You are one cute mama, and I can't wait to see who's features she has either. Can we get together for some water ice one of these days before you head out to YL camp and I head off to Vegas? That would make me smile real big. Praying for you three!

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